I’ve spent a good portion of 2011 complaining. (And I think rightly so, I felt terrible for a good 3-6 months of the year.) I still don’t feel 100%, but I’m getting better. This is a good thing.
In trying to improve how I look at the world, suffering and joys, I’ve taken to reading "Tiny Buddha" on a pretty regular basis. I can identify with some posts better than others (for example, the story about someone getting accidentally pregnant — I don’t identify with that and hope I never will), but there’s a lot of really good life advice on that site.
One of the newer posts (one I just read today) is about thanking yourself for things you did in 2011. So, instead of focusing only on the things you can improve in 2012 (which is still a very good thing to do — personal growth is admirable and kind of necessary), you look back on the things you did right and thank yourself for doing the right things for you.
I read the post and thought, "Yes… this is what I need to do to end 2011 on a positive note." I’m still hoping with all my heart that I don’t re-experience Months of Hell for a good long time, but 2011 did hold a few seeds of positivity that I hope grow into beautiful flowers, trees and vegetables (which I should eat more of in 2012) in the new year.
So here it goes — Thank you to 2011-me. It’s been a hell of a year, good job staying functional:
- Thank you for never giving up on feeling better.
- Thank you for asking for and accepting help.
- Thank you for trying new things to make your mind a better place to be.
- Thank you for going even when you wanted to stop.
- Thank you for realizing that as bad as you felt, you were still lucky to be you.